Just thinking.

I was thinking today while I was at work that it has been awhile since I sat down and wrote you. The world is still turning and life is a constant fog these days. Seems like all we do is work and sleep. We have to make time for anything else. I am not sure how we managed to work while we had you and still accomplish the day to day tasks of the house and accomplishing to feed you and us at the same time. But we managed. When I first started this job I was there for a reason I am not so sure anymore. I love what I do don't get me wrong. I just don't think that I am in the right place to do it. I work with people who are 10 years younger than me and then 1 woman who is a good 10+ years older than me that acts like she is 2. I am pretty sure that everywhere you go in the working world there are people like this but what happened to acting like an adult? Here I am writing to you about this and as of today you are 4 years and 5 months old. Crazy that I am pretty sure that you would act more mature and responsible than these people do. I love the customers I love the job just not the people who I do the job with. E and I are looking at making a big move in the next year or so. It is proving a bit difficult for me to be overly excited about it because this is the last place you were with us at. While so much has changed here since you left I still feel your presences here within these 4 walls. I am still finding things that remind me of you all the time. Just recently I found the tiniest sock of purple and white that you wore when you were a newborn. No clue where the other sock is but I have that one. Hopefully it will make it in the move. We are looking at moving across the country and making a fresh start. We have always wanted to move out of Florida and I think this is the time for us to do it. It is a huge step but I think we are both looking forward to a fresh start and a more adult themed life. We Miss you like crazy and it is still hard for me to be around a bunch of children on occasion. The way that some parents treat their children when they are out in public just floors me. A child is whining and or crying or simply saying mom mom mom and the parent ignores him or her. The child simply wants attention simply wants to be heard. Is it really that hard to take a second out of whatever you are doing to tend to your child? I don't think so. I see children starved for attention all the time and I am so thankful that you have the parents that you have because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they take the time with you and they listen and you flourish. I miss you so but I know that you are alright. I hope that you are having the time of your life sailing this summer. Just know that you are loved from afar.