I am sure over the next few years that there will be many posts such as this one. Over the last couple weeks I have seen more news on people who have killed their children, people killing people and school shootings than I would ever care to see. What kind of world have I brought you and your siblings into? It hardly seems fair that you all have to grow up in a world like this with people who just seem to be loosing it left and right. Where is the compassion for another person? Where is the love for your own child? People are seriously killing their own children and for what? What is the point? There is no freedom when someone does something like that. You go to Jail and most likely you stay there for the rest of your life on lock down because you can't be out in the normal population of the prison because you are known as a child killer. Another thing that is bothering me is what is with people harming another person with their car and then fleeing the scene on the accident only to be found later? People are killing people like this on a daily bases. I swear we are living in a version of hell and I don't like it. I know that your mom Y and dad D are doing everything they know to protect you and your brother but some days I wonder what this world is going to be like when you grown up. When you are old enough to read this. There are things that have happened in our history good and bad that I could not even fathom. The shooting at Columbine high school in Colorado Where so many were killed and injured in 1999. I lost friends in that school massacre. It seems that no matter what is done things like this keep happening. Where is that fair for you all? I know that you are home schooled and I have to say I am ever grateful for it because I would worry constantly about your well being if you were in a public school or any school for that matter. I worry about your siblings all the time because they are in a public school. I can only hope that they are vigilant and pay attention to their surroundings and that nothing bad like any of this happens while they are there. I am not sure where this world is headed but I can only hope that one day we see more good than we do bad. We grow from every experience in life but do we have to have so many hard ones in order to learn the tough stuff? Just more thinking from my over exhausted brain.
On another note today was a year since I heard anything from the attorney about any sort of photos or correspondence about you. I can only hope that this means that it is getting close to that time again. I am not banking on it as you all are always busy and I am aware of that but some updated photos and maybe a few words on how well you are doing would be wonderful. I think I have been dealing with the silence a little better this year than last year but sometimes it is just pure defining.
I love you baby girl. I miss you more than words could ever express and I think about you often.
Until next time.
