I went looking tonight to see what date it was we closed the show your daddy E was in that week before you were born. How could I forget Unnecessary Farce? You used to love listening to him talk like he was still a Scottish Hit man. The voice seemed to sooth you when you were tiny. We always use to say the night a show would close that we would feel lost without being at the theater for the next weekend with a show to do. You put so much of your time, energy, and efforts into making the show a success and have a good time with it at the same thing that it tends to become a part of you and when you take that part away you feel a little lost. We always joked about what we would do the weekend after the show would close. Little did we know you had that all planned for us. We closed Unnecessary Farce January 29, 2011 and you were born 7 days later on February 5, 2011. We didn't have to look for what we were going to do. By the Thursday of that following week you already had me on lock down at the hospital. While I was looking back at some of the photos that are on your daddy's Facebook page I forgot how cute they were. I looked at them in a different light tonight. I looked at them the way he saw them when he took them. the captions on each photo made me see he saw the world in your eyes. I wish I would have been able to see it before. I am thankful to see it now. I know he misses you just as much as I do but I also know that your photo album and written update of your accomplishments and activities gave him just as much comfort as it did me. I have been pretty content since that album. I think it is because I know what to expect now. Who know's really. Maybe that is why I have been in such a blog rut as well. Just wanted to commemorate this day in words.
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Monday, January 19, 2015
A Opportunity of a lifetime.
First off let me say Happy New Year. It occurs to me that I have not written in a couple weeks. More than a couple weeks truth be told. I have had a bit of a writers block when it comes to blogging to you and the rest of the time been crazy busy finishing up school and getting ready to enter the working world again. I have not worked since before you left. I am excited and scared all at the same time. What if I can't handle working with the public anymore? What if I hate my job? What if I am just not cut out for all of this after working so hard for it in school? What if I fail my National test? All these things run in my head running wild at any given time. Feels good to get them written down for a change.
I still think about you all the time but I am pretty content with the photo's and update that I received right after Thanksgiving. I look at the often and I can picture you in my mind spending 20 minutes giving your daddy D a check up when he sneezes. I hope that all your dreams come true and you are able to accomplish the career of your choice when you are older. I am most certain you will. It is one of the important reasons why we chose Daddy D and mommy Y for you.
I Started this blog on the day I found out about my possibilities for graduation and I never got the chance to finish it until now. More so a writers block than anything. It happens.
Anyway. Graduation. March 29th I will graduate with my second degree since you have left and this degree is the one I want to use. I have maintained all A's in this program with the exception of the one B that rolled over from my Gen ed classes from my first degree. With that being said I have been approached about speaking at my own graduation. I never thought in a million years that they would ask me or tell me they are even considering me for the possibility. So now I am in the running with several other students. I am not sure when I will find out for sure but I will make sure that I write about it for you. I am thinking of using a passage from my favorite book if I get the opportunity. Just to even be considered for it is a huge honor. I wish you were here for me to share it with you.
Other than that not much else is going on. I am working on what might possibly be my job for at least the next year or so in order to get to where I want to be. One of these days we could be working side by side if you continue on the path that you are on at this age. The thought of it makes me smile.
Disney has been a non stop thing for us since we resumed our passes in September of last year. We got around to a lot of the resorts for the holiday displays and to just see what they have to offer at each one. This is something that we did not get to do with you while you were here. I still have not been able to walk on the laugh floor but I am hoping to soon. I am thinking it will be ok but I figure I will know when the time is right. We have gone almost every weekend since we have gotten our passes back except for right around Christmas time because it was just to crazy of a crowd. I still look for you in the crowd when we are walking by people. I think it is something that I will always do I am not sure it will ever just stop. I could be wrong but I doubt it.
Life continues for your daddy E and I and I think we are finding out that we are going to be alright. Ever since I got your last update and photos I have been more content with the way things have been going and the way things are going to be. Maybe one day some of those things will change but for right now it seems to be alright. I don't cry as much these days but every now and then it sneaks up on me and catches me off guard. I seem to smile more these days and I don't feel guilty about it. I know you would want me to be happy and for the most part I am. I am proud of myself in being able to accomplish the degree that I have wanted for so long. Now to pass the National board exam. When I do that I will be home free.
Well until next time. Miss you and Love you.
I still think about you all the time but I am pretty content with the photo's and update that I received right after Thanksgiving. I look at the often and I can picture you in my mind spending 20 minutes giving your daddy D a check up when he sneezes. I hope that all your dreams come true and you are able to accomplish the career of your choice when you are older. I am most certain you will. It is one of the important reasons why we chose Daddy D and mommy Y for you.
I Started this blog on the day I found out about my possibilities for graduation and I never got the chance to finish it until now. More so a writers block than anything. It happens.
Anyway. Graduation. March 29th I will graduate with my second degree since you have left and this degree is the one I want to use. I have maintained all A's in this program with the exception of the one B that rolled over from my Gen ed classes from my first degree. With that being said I have been approached about speaking at my own graduation. I never thought in a million years that they would ask me or tell me they are even considering me for the possibility. So now I am in the running with several other students. I am not sure when I will find out for sure but I will make sure that I write about it for you. I am thinking of using a passage from my favorite book if I get the opportunity. Just to even be considered for it is a huge honor. I wish you were here for me to share it with you.
Other than that not much else is going on. I am working on what might possibly be my job for at least the next year or so in order to get to where I want to be. One of these days we could be working side by side if you continue on the path that you are on at this age. The thought of it makes me smile.
Disney has been a non stop thing for us since we resumed our passes in September of last year. We got around to a lot of the resorts for the holiday displays and to just see what they have to offer at each one. This is something that we did not get to do with you while you were here. I still have not been able to walk on the laugh floor but I am hoping to soon. I am thinking it will be ok but I figure I will know when the time is right. We have gone almost every weekend since we have gotten our passes back except for right around Christmas time because it was just to crazy of a crowd. I still look for you in the crowd when we are walking by people. I think it is something that I will always do I am not sure it will ever just stop. I could be wrong but I doubt it.
Life continues for your daddy E and I and I think we are finding out that we are going to be alright. Ever since I got your last update and photos I have been more content with the way things have been going and the way things are going to be. Maybe one day some of those things will change but for right now it seems to be alright. I don't cry as much these days but every now and then it sneaks up on me and catches me off guard. I seem to smile more these days and I don't feel guilty about it. I know you would want me to be happy and for the most part I am. I am proud of myself in being able to accomplish the degree that I have wanted for so long. Now to pass the National board exam. When I do that I will be home free.
Well until next time. Miss you and Love you.
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