Awareness

I think I came to the conclusion a few days ago of why we don't move.

This is the place we brought you home from the hospital. This is the place you took your first steps. This is the place where we said our see you later's. There are so many memories here that it hurts to be here sometimes but it would hurt to not be here too. So many things are ever changing around here and they will continue to be that way for years to come but the memories will remain. I guess maybe I feel like if we are not here we will not have the memories. Funny how that goes. This is the Facebook status that I shared this morning.
Appears (according to looking back) 5 years ago today I was about to return to Denver on a life changing Journey. Some thing I would do diffident but most I would not otherwise that beautiful little girl would not be a permanent footprint on so many lives. Otherwise even I wonder what the hell I was thinking.

Looking back on all of it I would not change I thing because then you might not be where you are today.

We went to Disney on Ice last night for Frozen and it was harder than I thought it was going to be. In all honesty I did not give it any thought at being hard at all. Don't get me wrong we miss you all the time but with knowing what to expect in terms of photos or communication now it is far easier to deal with (most days) so it never crossed my mind that when the show started I would actually get teary thinking about you and your sisters. I think we were the only adults sitting in the front row with NO children. I think we need to barrow some from someone next time. Who knows maybe by then we can plan something with your mom and dad (Wishful thinking after all a dream is a wish your heart makes) :)

Anyway time for me to get ready for work. It's the weekend. I hope you have a safe one wherever you are. We love you.

Tis The Season......The Season of Graduates.

Tomorrow my cousin's second daughter finishes her last day of High School. She graduates on Monday and I only wish I could be there to see it. Graduation is such an accomplishment in a young adults life. You are on top of the mountain of life on days like this and these days do not come often and you work hard for it. You spend years climbing the mountain to this point only to see what is on the other side. When you get to the top the possibilities are endless and the road vast. You can go anywhere you want to go be anything you want to be. The goal of a parent is to raise a respectful well rounded individual who graduates high school and takes the next venture in their lives as a young adult. It is bitter sweet for parents I am sure. While one side of you is busting at the seams for joy and happiness that you accomplished your goal on the other side you are crushed because you accomplished your goal. This is the selfish side of parenting where we wish for one more day one more moment one something to stand still in the time of the last 18 years. I remember wishing for those one more moments one more times one more anything's after you left. I still find myself doing that sometimes. There is nothing wrong with it but I know that you are happy and well taken care of and you are off to see the world. So happy for my cousin and her daughters. The world is at their finger tips. I miss you guys so much.

Jv you got some great family on this side of it all that love you without even knowing you but know no matter what I miss you so much and only wish you happiness and life.