The countdown continues.

Seems like life is just one big countdown these days. I am working 5-6 days a week now and I have to admit I am still not used to being back in the working world as much as I have been lately. Things have been a little difficult at work the past week or so but i am learning to deal with it day by day. I am finding myself in the middle of a battle of wanting to be alone and not have to talk to anyone because I have to be surrounded by people and problems all day long at work. When  I come home I want to just be able to space out and not have to worry about anything. Seems that is causing a lot of neglect on my part of the household stuff that needs to be done around here. It will get done right? I am still not sure how i managed to work and have you and your sisters when you all were here. It seems almost impossible to even think about. How did I manage a whole house work 40+ hours a week and still manage the laundry, dishes, dinners, baths, bedtime stories and then some? I know I had help and I was thankful for it. I wish I had some help now that's for sure. I can't even remember the last time I vacuumed the living room let alone the last time I picked up a dust rag. I guess I need to get with the program. You have been on my mind a lot lately. I miss getting photos and updates. It has been a long time since I have heard anything about what has been going on in your world. I think that is why it is starting to get a little hard for me. We are coming up on the 3 year mark next month and it does not even seem possible. It is hard to believe it has been that long. I hope that then next 13 years fly by or that your parents decided in the next couple years that you are old enough to understand who I am. Maybe they will want to share with you just how special you are in this world and how hard you fought to be here. Maybe one day. Just maybe. Seems to be my only wish these days. I keep thinking that if I wish hard enough it just might happen. A girl can dream can't she?