Major Health Changes Even more major country changes

In the last week several major health things have happened to me. I never go to the emergency room for anything and last Thursday I had to leave work and make the trip to the Er because I was in so much pain  I was in tears and could not concentrate at all. They gave me nausea medication and morphine and started and IV and did blood work and urine and a cat scan and an ultrasound (First one I have had since the afternoon before I had you). It was strange not seeing anything in my uterus. That is what it looks like empty. All of these test and they could not find the reason for my pain. Sent me home on pain meds and nausea medication and with the new found knowledge that diabetes was officially a diagnosis for me. I had a follow up appointment with my provider on Tuesday and he pulled my A1C level and it was 8.2 He said anything under a 10 he would be happy with so 8.2 he was elated. I on the other had was disappointed in myself. It is very true that since you left I have really let myself go. I gained more weight i did not take care of myself. Overall I was and still am not happy with where I am in my life. I don't want to be in FL anymore and it seems that every time I think I am getting close to getting out of here something sucks us back in right where we have been for the last 10 years. Honestly I am tired of it. BUT now I feel like a failure. I have spent my life around Diabetes and I know what it can do to a person. It takes their lives. They make their decisions and some can correct the problem and some cannot. I am one that can and I WILL correct the issue but to be honest it should not be an issue to begin with. I knew better. I hope that you never have to deal with any of my illnesses. High blood pressure, Diabetes a family riddled with heart disease. Allergies asthma migraines and the list goes on and on. I just have to shake my head at myself. I hope that you are doing well. It has been so long since i have been able to just sit down and write you a line or two. this year is almost gone. I am not sure when I blinked and woke up to all the mess that is going on but here we are. The united states elected Donald Trump into office yesterday for the next President of the united states. I am not sure how I feel about that. I am not a very big political person but I feel like we are taking a 50 year step back in the wrong direction of the progresses we have made over the years by allowing this man to steer the helm of our United States government. All we can do is sit on the side lines with bated breath and hope he does not do the things he promised or he gets impeached for something. He is bound to mess up at some point. He is notorious for sticking his foot in his mouth and saying or doing the wrong things. It is a good thing that you are still young and hopefully won't remember much of his presidency. Stay young and innocent baby girl. I love you.