For the first time.

For the first time since right after you left I had the pleasure of holding a little baby. The last time I did this was when a friend of mine had a little girl and it was very difficult. About 3 months after you left. Tonight it was glorious. He was 3 days old and so precious and new. I look at little ones like him and think that anything is possible. Nothing is impossible when you look at a new life and their beautiful little faces. They will some day conquer the world one step at a time. It is no secret that this weekend I encountered some very interesting people in my outings. Parents who did not care what their kids were doing or where they were doing it at and causing safety issues and then parents who were a little over bearing and I think lost sight at how precious children really are and how much they take for granted that they just think that they are just always going to be there. Children can be gone in the blink of an eye just like a parent can be. Cherish them. Let them live a little. So many things I would do different now than what I did before. I was a harsh parent I won't deny that. I am one of those people that they would look at and not understand some of the things I did or said when it came to my children. I really don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be the one that cherishes every single moment she has with her kids no matter when those moments are. I want to be the one that lives a little and lets my children do the same.  I want to be the one that can still be the parent but give them a little bit if space to be the child as well. Maybe one day I will get that opportunity. Just a random thought.