Looking and Thinking.

Your dad and I talk about the possibility of moving out of the apartment that we brought you home to and buy a house or even move out of the state. In the last year or so I am happy to say I am glad that you have not been here otherwise I might not have been so nice to some people who have moved in and decided to act the way they do. Two neighbors and to much crap. We like our place here but are beginning to think that it is just not us anymore. With J on vacation this is the first time since you have been gone that I have been alone as much as I have. 20 months. I guess I am just not use to it. The cat does not even want to have anything to do with me. Why I have no idea. I think he is mad that J is on vacation. So much is changing around here. I am wanting to go back to work and go to school at the same time so I don't go stir crazy and so dad does not have to pay for everything anymore. One day at a time I guess. It is really all we can do. Who knows where the roads will lead from here.