First day of work

Today was the first time I walked into a work place and got paid for what I did. Which was pretty much NOTHING. I sat in a classroom setting for several hours and listened to someone tell me things that I have already known or already done. Then I was told that I get to do them again because when I did them before I did it as an extern and I have to do them now as a employee. OH Goody. I am not thrilled about this at all. IN all honesty I am actually pissed about it. Simply because none of the stuff that I have to do again is different from what I had to do when I did it for my extern position. SO FRUSTRATING. I can't wait for this part of it all to be over with so that I can go to my store do my job and make a difference. I really fell like I am back to square one at not knowing anything that I have already been taught. I spent 180+ hours counting scripts, working with customers, insurance companies etc and I am now being told I have to sit in a classroom setting on Saturday and move skittles and tic tac's around on a counting try and act like they are pills. TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE PLEASE? Someone besides me has to understand how degrading this is to me. I don't normally let things get to me when it comes to work and I don't tend to have to much to say about it or bring it all home from work but this one has me lit up just a little. When I left for work today I could only think about that I didn't have anyone to drop off or pick up from day care when it was over. I did not have that little person to take my focus off of being so frustrated or that little one to do something cute and make me smile or laugh. I miss that. It felt weird. I didn't think at this juncture it could feel weird anymore but it does. This is something that I have not done since you left and today started a new chapter and in all honesty I can't even be happy about it right now.

I am still kicking myself in the butt for not getting an Easter card to add to your box of cards. I will get one but it will be late and I will know it. Will anyone else? Not unless they read the blog but I will know. So it matters. It matters big to me. Should be something so small how can it matter so big?

I hope you had a Happy Easter. I am sure it was filled with many bunny rabbits, egg hunts, and lots of fun.

Until next time. Thanks for letting me vent.