Learning

I think in all of this the one thing that I am having the hardest time learning it patience. My patience has been tried for months this year and it is wearing thin. Very thin, March 3rd is the last time that I received any photos of you and it is wearing on my patience. I got word over a week ago that the attorney had photos and a update letter and I have yet to get them. We are at the day before Thanksgiving. I am finding it hard to be patient and wait for these to be sent to me when they should have already been in my hands. March 3rd to November 26th is a long wait. How much longer am I going to have to wait to get what I was told I would be getting all along? It is becoming very frustrating and hard to be positive about it all. Holiday's are hard. This is the second Thanksgiving that you have not been with us and while you would think that it might get easier the longer it has been that seems to be as far from the truth as it can be.  I am still trying to figure out where this year went so fast. It was like before I could blink the later part of the years holidays are here and the rest of the year just disappeared.

Today I started volunteering at the local salvation army toy shop. Helping some 4.500 kids this year have a good Christmas. We always adopt an angel from the angel tree every year but this year we decided to adopt more than one and I decided that I would even volunteer to help with receiving and distribution. This is going to be one heck of a project. I am looking forward to it. Maybe knowing that you are taking care of and being able to help other people give their kids a Christmas they might not other have will allow a different mind set about the holidays. I know that this is a step in the right direction for me but at the same time I know it is going to cause a lot of heartache as well. I am going to embrace every bit of this and look at it all in a positive light. This is all the process of teaching me patience. I only hope that I take everything from the lesson it has to offer. One day at a time.