And she cried.........

A couple of weeks ago I believe right after Jv's Birthday I sent off for Medical records for the both of us from when she was born. I was looking for only one thing but I did not care I sent for both records. I have to say I am so glad that I did. Because Jv was a C section baby and I was stuck in bed for the first 24 hours of her life I did not get to be involved in things that I had with the other children. I was looking for her foot prints. It never occurred to me that I did not have her foot prints at all until E came to me and told me he had seen a tattoo that he thought I would be interested in. Someone had their babies foot prints tattooed on the top of their feet. He knows me all so well telling me I know you would do it in a heartbeat no matter how painful it might be. He was right. I went looking and that is when I found out I did not have those foot prints. I never did foot prints with her at home either for some reason. I was so upset. It took me awhile to come up with the idea of getting her records from the hospital but when I did I was doubtful that what I wanted would be in there. I had forgotten that I even sent off for them until I opened the envelopes tonight. E and I both thought it was just medical insurance stuff.   I cried tears of joy today when I turned to page 4 of her records tonight and staring right back at me were my baby girls foot prints. I was so happy. I have not cried tears of joy in a long time and it felt good. I miss her every single day. There is not a day that goes by where she is not in my mind or my dreams. Not a day goes by where I don't say her name at least once. I am so happy to have her foot prints in my possession now. I don't care that it is going to cost me almost $ 40 for just those records. No amount of money in the world will replace the way I felt the moment I saw her foot prints sitting in front of me Finally. Thank you Florida Hospital.......Thank you Jv. It really is the small things.